murderpants

cyclone

2012-02-07T00:59:00.002-07:00

Who reads this? What do you like? Photos or text? I started this in January of 07. So after 5 years I have received little contact from this blog. Please comment or email me at rancidrobot@hotmail.com

that would be nice. Thank you in advance.

falling

2012-02-07T00:27:00.002-07:00

I've had some amazing fails. Marriage and ny pushed me way past way past what i thought was possible. But I've never really tried to do something for myself. My efforts have always been for someone else. It would be nice to fail for myself. If only I could figure out what I want and what makes me happy. After 32 years I should have figured this out by now.

2012-02-06T15:57:00.001-07:00

naps

2012-01-09T23:07:00.000-07:00

this batch makes me happy

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2012-01-09T22:58:00.002-07:00

once i got way too drunk with out her. She hid my shirts and wrote "i'm a piece of shit" on my chest.
Picked my head up with my hair and punched me. i didn't wake up.

that was a long time ago.

taco town

2012-01-09T22:55:00.002-07:00

butter clutter

2012-01-09T22:50:00.002-07:00

twenty eleven was a good year. it started out terrible. then i life got better. i met some amazing people.

from this tander

2012-01-09T22:46:00.002-07:00

i may have become lazy last year. At the end there. As far as posting. here is some ketchup.

Maxing Mallory Making movies

2011-11-07T21:45:00.002-07:00

Money making me melt. So fucking annoying. These thing don't make any rememberment. Gosh darn it. Frazzle cock.

baked knees

2011-10-30T00:07:00.001-06:00

Its that time of the month when things get cheesy and hard to deal with.

moving more memories

2011-10-26T18:47:00.002-06:00

just kinda typing util something pops up. It's cold out and I don't like it. Still living in fort fun. may not be too much longer. will have to see. things are good.

these days, these plays

2011-10-25T05:59:00.002-06:00

It would be nice to have something interesting to say. Or make up. Don't know. Got nothing. I like the photos though. There was a fire on Mountain and Maple early Monday Morning. I could feel the heat from two blocks away. Later I noticed that my taxi was covered with soot.

operation moustache boob

2011-10-06T17:13:00.002-06:00

tired tires

2011-10-03T23:43:00.000-06:00

Kinda sleepy, not thinking in words at the moment.

my baby's buttons

2011-10-03T23:37:00.000-06:00

not a lot to say right now

Middle Maternity

2011-09-05T23:09:00.002-06:00

Something may have happened. Probably not. She could mean this week. Or not.

Special hidden doors

2011-09-05T23:01:00.002-06:00

Under the highway there is a door. I found it years ago. Then i got in. Not as interesting as i thought it would be. No dead hobo factory, just a bunch of dirt and gravel.

melting melvins

2011-09-05T22:50:00.002-06:00

i guess that there is not much to say.

She Starts Slapping Sunburns

2011-08-27T21:48:00.002-06:00

She is photogenic and a fabulous model. She Smacks me. She almost cut off my moustache. She would let me fuck up. She shuns me, she summons me. She sees me snore, sometimes. She spills spiders and sawdust. She surprises me. She is surreal in the sunrise.

deliver fever forever

2011-08-27T20:55:00.003-06:00

What a weird week. I had a wonderful weekend with my lady friend. My grandfather died at 90. I forgot that it was my anniversary or what year i was married. Good thing I'm not legally bound to that person anymore.

Changed my cab partner.

Overall I'm pretty happy with my life. Everything is still fucking confusing, but in a good way. All of the sudden there are multiple photos of the same thing. Sometimes i get sad and confused. Then I think about ny, and how much i hated it there, how no matter how hard I tried i couldn't be happy or even think straight. Still the hate and anger grow. I can't believe how much I loathe her. That ex can go fuck herself. She still blocks me in all electronic forms. I just want to move on.

Anyway things are going well with Nikki, I hope that I never despise her. Even though once a month I'm convinced that she can't stand my face. The hormones are powerful. It will be interesting to see were this goes.

troubles in parasites

2011-08-13T00:21:00.002-06:00

I don't know if i'm i a fuck up or a fuck tard. I cringe and swoon for strong ladies, then they are crazy. What is this some sort of fucked up mommy thing? Goddammit. It would be nice if i was not controlled by my junk.

"I'm not Damon, I will not steal your drugs or move you to the middle of nowhere." Is what i should have said. I should have said, "I'm a cuddlie motherfucker. If you don't like it you don't have to date me." This is not what I say. I apologize and say that it's ok. I say that its my fault. Because i have no spine, because i just want someone to care about me. After being controlled and manipulated for 6-8 years and getting destroyed. I don't know. I don't know, anymore. It's like i'm afraid to man up. A decision is tricky.

2011-07-21T12:01:00.001-06:00

spunday slumday

2011-07-21T11:53:00.001-06:00

this has been over do.

2011-06-30T12:56:00.000-06:00

Porn is work

2011-06-05T00:53:00.002-06:00

So today i did porn for the first time. Let Saturday, June 4 2011 go down in infamy. Its fucking hard work.

On the way

2011-05-29T04:49:00.001-06:00

So i got backed up in a major way, there is more to come.

fast rocks

2011-05-07T21:48:00.002-06:00

photos taken while driving about 50 mph

pre darkness

2011-04-30T01:22:00.003-06:00

light shadows

2011-04-30T01:03:00.003-06:00

Things keep on changing. I'm warm, hungry, tired and my chest hurts. A warm breath and a bath.

expressive tones

2011-04-23T03:37:00.001-06:00

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2011-04-15T02:39:00.002-06:00

text looks good on this side of the page. Let us loose. Let me die while doing something bad and having fun. We can go to sleep and never wake up. Transitions are painful and a illuminating. Wonderful. Beautiful. nap

2011-04-15T02:06:00.001-06:00

getting bye

2011-04-15T01:36:00.003-06:00

a day or two ago i had divorce papers served to me. Thank you Jesus. I'm a idiot and a bad man. Thank you Jesus. This morning i woke up with pizza crust and blow in one pocket. The other had stephanie's phone. I don't really know stephanie. She is a server at a local pub that i have talked to twice. So i ended up hanging out with her most of the night. I learned that she has a boyfriend, she gets lost easily and finds lost dogs while drunk.

Meanwhile I'm spending more and more time with Sabina. We watched about two hours of porn the other day. Spending time with her is way too easy. I wish i understood her and her motives better. Although being surprised and confused is intoxicating. She makes me itchy.

Thank you cake and ...

2011-04-15T01:31:00.001-06:00

2011-04-15T00:37:00.001-06:00

monographic

2011-04-12T02:57:00.002-06:00

so this may

2011-04-08T02:45:00.000-06:00

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2011-04-08T02:29:00.000-06:00

a few more from the fire

2011-04-08T02:21:00.002-06:00

turning things around

2011-04-07T01:58:00.003-06:00

so i'm trying to change the way i see things and relate to the world. this is not something that i would post a year or a month ago.

i'v learned that when you pretend to pose for porn shots, that you should not look at the camera. it just looks wrong.

further fur

2011-03-31T21:28:00.002-06:00

whats going on here?

2011-03-31T21:22:00.001-06:00

i feel alive again

2011-03-12T02:01:00.001-07:00

still not getting any action, but having fun trying

Huevos Rancheros

2011-02-23T02:39:00.002-07:00

Dear blog.

I just had a date. It was great. Jennifer is super nice, pretty and smart. She is looking for short term dating. So am I. This is great.

jumping the gun

2011-02-19T21:57:00.002-07:00

I'm no good at this

Workin' Overtime

2011-02-06T04:41:00.003-07:00

Thinking about Miriam less. She is a fading dream. What a life for a wife.

Third day on the job. At first I was thinking about how I was going to spend all of my money. Now I'm just trying to make the lease. Half way to breaking even.

Had a spill on a bike last week. My face is better, but my glasses are a mess.

Been using some dating websites. They are fun, but would be funner if I had money and could date. Anyway its fun to look at profiles. I'm so happy that i don't live int the hell hole of new york.

Lets try this sober

2011-01-22T02:13:00.002-07:00

Back in Colorado. Thank God. Getting a divorce. Thats not great but somehow it's good. I don't have to disappoint my favorite person any more. No need to drink into oblivion or lie about it. I would not have believed that my marriage couldn't work. Not until we tried everything. Not till death was around the corner. Mumbling about the days to come.

I get to start a new life now. I'm a new man and a fresh fool.

This is so much better than a slow pathetic death.

Thanks for the fresh start.

New York City is a Grave Yard

2010-12-14T00:08:00.003-07:00

I lost my best friend. I lost my dog. I lost 8 years of sobriety. I lost my will to live. I lost my wife. I lost it all in New York City. I lost my TV. I lost my friends and family. I lost my faith in humanity. I lost it all in New York City. My special lady used to look at me. She would look at me and see a man she loved, a man she wanted to be with. It would be so bad, if only I had stopped pulling in breathe. Now she sees hate and pain. New York City has killed me.

left over bile

2010-10-07T23:00:00.002-06:00

i'm leaving. Leaving again.

Saying goodbye to death and loneliness.

fuck you despair.

up yours stranger danger.

see ya soon my lonely wife.

i'll love you forever miriam.

and tommy too.

death in fort collins

is another life underground

postpone

2010-08-12T05:17:00.002-06:00

traveling lightly lightly traveling.

turning inside out without leaves

leaving learning

stinky wet skin

nocturnal vision handicapped perception

creating false redemption

2010-08-08T13:43:00.001-06:00

Frank Stark entered the room. Wagging his fang and making his mark.

2010-05-18T00:37:00.000-06:00

things are not easy

livin' la vida loco

2010-05-04T10:12:00.003-06:00

I hate ny. Foco is much worse. Why do i want to live there

2010-03-18T01:18:00.000-06:00

junker lumbart

2010-03-18T01:16:00.000-06:00

this is easy almost too easy

2010-03-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

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2009-12-17T22:38:00.001-07:00

death train apotheosis masturbation annihilation deconstruction

2009-10-21T22:33:00.001-06:00

we can turn into robots,
we can turn into anything

2009-10-09T08:17:00.000-06:00

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surronded by dwarfs

2009-10-05T08:58:00.002-06:00

red eye melvin tower

jim skinny

2009-07-24T08:39:00.002-06:00

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taciturn

2009-07-13T22:10:00.002-06:00

maybe the super power is communication
or just a normal power

super powers

2009-07-10T08:37:00.001-06:00

mr. breaker

2009-07-10T08:05:00.003-06:00

Philopiaty

you treat my arm like a cane

2009-06-26T09:25:00.001-06:00

she took out her stitches

this happens today

2009-06-19T00:06:00.002-06:00

a good start

2009-06-06T00:07:00.000-06:00

we'll see what happens now

mummies in the out feild

2009-06-04T22:53:00.003-06:00

doing ok.
the blue nimbus on my forearm
seems to be getting closer to the surface.

in the writers perspective, the person says that he is feeling better. he says that "everything is better, in every way." his wife agrees that he seems happy. she is happy that he is happy. she says, "finally, he's not a douche bag anymore."

interesting side effects; person is watching less tv, listening to his mp3 player less, and playing less video games. he says that he wants to be more open to human contact. when at home instead of watching tv, he lays on his bed and looks out the window. he enjoys food more than ever.

power in my hands

2009-06-03T22:52:00.004-06:00

it still seems like a good idea to try to get ny times to publish a daily comic strip. My idea is that if i submit one comic for every week day, for a year.
that they will have to publish something. If not just keep up the magic? until they give up?

It also seems like a good idea to get my hands strong. I think that its to get good at climbing. Or maybe breaking walnuts with my bear hands.

for a while i was thinking about street performance. at most i think i could fill 30 minutes with random shouting and fart noises. that may be a half hour too long.

2009-06-02T23:31:00.000-06:00

talking bacon sandwich

2009-06-01T23:06:00.002-06:00

Or maybe it was a baloney sandwich.

Things are really starting to turn around.

easier and more rewarding

things are so smooth now.

It's my prozac attack.

in high school, people write mean thing in my yearbook. Things like "Your a Fucking Idiot","next time I see you, your dead". My favorite was, " I like tits"

breaking legs and eggs

2009-05-29T00:31:00.001-06:00

never crap your pants at work, or on the way

2009-05-26T00:41:00.002-06:00

sitting on grandmother

2009-05-21T22:12:00.003-06:00

you see what you want to see.

my new favorite song is

Rub You The Right Way

by Johnny Gill

how i learned to love the blob

2009-05-20T23:13:00.003-06:00

never has staring into the sun been so wonderful.

I always assumed that this was going into the either. drifting though the dead space.
this fluoxetine hcl has changed everything. The new person diving into
the wonderful new hell. Apologizing with out hesitation.

this is working, somehow

2009-05-12T20:10:00.000-06:00

2009-05-05T17:19:00.000-06:00

i'm either getting better or much, much worse

vomit stained shoes

2009-04-15T12:10:00.001-06:00

it's easy

2009-03-26T23:32:00.002-06:00

I don't do anything and complain about it. I suck and leach off all of this stupid crap.

After eight years and four or five months I'm back were I started
Now it's a little different. Now it's a secret.

I don't create anything, because I'm lazy and easily disappointed.
TV, video games, internet, they used to be a nice escape, now they just a way of life. Being single is a wonderful motivator for being creative. I fell like I'm fat, full, and ready to go nowhere. Just waiting and waiting for life or something better.

I hate NY

2009-03-18T13:01:00.000-06:00

I hate it so much. It kill me over and over. i hate ny

devout foster

2009-03-03T11:35:00.002-07:00

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2009-01-07T21:12:00.002-07:00

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2008-09-23T23:32:00.001-06:00

city of ghosts

2008-09-14T23:41:00.001-06:00

Too bad I don't know what I'm doing.
There are drug deal in the hallway and they are loud.

It may be time to get schooled.

2008-08-26T13:02:00.001-06:00

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2008-08-09T13:22:00.000-06:00

goodbye job

2008-07-26T11:24:00.000-06:00

The next post will be from the
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